huixian`
Xian. Fayexian. Ah Faye.
Qian Nian Lao Yao. Monster.
14 Jan 1989.
Capricorn
S'pore.

wishlist`
new sandals n shoes.
new coloured sports shoes.
handphone.
mp3.
new camera.
new sling bag.
sportsbag.
new watch.
nice photo album.
new waterbottle.
bells. bells. n more bells.
unlimited access to anime manga.
:D

loves`
anime.
manga.
hgs6B'01.dhs2F'03.dhs4B'05.
tjcOG3.tjcCG07/06.INVICTUS.
tjcsoccer.
art.
food.
chocolate.
BELLS.
keychains.
animals.
DOGS.
mai family.
mai frenz.
mai dog.
fahrenheit.
arron yan yalun.
wilber pan.
lin JJ.
derrick hoh wei jian.
Milubing.
lin zi ying.
kwon sang woo.
:)

dislikes`
mai enemies.
superficial ppl.
irritating idiots.
tablets.
my life.
:(

darlings`
Aiysha Annabel BingQuan Belinda Charlotte Cheryl ChiChing Claudia Dawn Denise Dickson EePin Emelyne Eunice Gelin HuangHuan HuiFang Huimin Huishan HuiTing Irene Janice Jessica JiaMing Joyce Justine Kamun Kelvin Limin LinXin Lizzy Mabeline Matthew Melissa PeiWen Rabecca Rebekah Reshvinder RuoLin Sally Sarah SerHua ShangYunn Sherlene ShiHui ShiTian SiangYee Simar Stephanie SueWei SuHui SzeHwee WenQin WenXiu Xinni YeapShiYi YeeTien YiFang YuCai YuLin SoccerTeamTJC

flashbacks`
xian_xianz.
xianxianz.
monsterxian.
monsterxiann.

memories`
October 2003.
November 2003.
December 2003.
January 2004.
February 2004.
March 2004.
April 2004.
May 2004.
June 2004.
July 2004.
August 2004.
September 2004.
October 2004.
November 2004.
December 2004.
January 2005.
February 2005.
March 2005.
April 2005.
May 2005.
June 2005.
July 2005.
August 2005.
September 2005.
October 2005.
November 2005.
December 2005.
January 2006.
February 2006.
March 2006.
April 2006.
May 2006.
July 2006.
September 2006.
October 2006.
November 2006.
December 2006.
May 2007.
June 2007.
March 2008.
August 2008.
June 2009.


thankyou`
pix edited by me.
pix edited using photoshop.
main pix taken from cant-rmb-where.
n tt's my teamtjc jershey over there!!
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music hosted by angelfire.
tagboard from myflashbox.
strictly no stealing.
copyrighted.

currentlyplaying`
Goong OST
Stay - 你...我是傻瓜




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speak your mind`

February 29, 2004

~ Bright n sunny n hot!! ~

hey peepz... how's this weekend? nice? comfortable? lotsa hw? stress? well.. i quite slack leh.. this week no hw... so now xiao qian-ing.. have chinese test next week... now slacking... me hor.. haiz~ watever... hehehe... :P yesterdae... diamond had a bath... me so bo liaoz... so go n take photos of him in bath... xie zhen ji leh... interested? hahaha.. dun let u c... no lah.. coz me haben upload them into comp yet.. lazy lah... coz me using optical mouse... then not enuff usb port... so cannot upload.. wat to do...?

hrmm... watching huan zhu ge ge II juz now.. i mean a few hours ago... hehehe... veri nice.. xiang fei almost died... watched b4 liaoz.. but watch again.. juz as nice as watching for the 1st time... now listening to the songs in the show.. cd lend frm my sis's fren one... tink i like qiong yao's books... veri ermm.. romantic? hahaha.. think they veri nice lor... other examples r gui zhang fu, cang tian you lei, etc etc... tink like huan zhu ge ge n cang tian you lei the most... cang tian you lei is so damn nice~ so sad somemore... sobx sobx.. i realise tt reading the book is so much nicer than watching the show lor... like the cang tian you lei.. actually i watch the 1st episode of the show first then read the book one... then read the book is like so nice n got space to imagine the people's looks n the scenary... but then after reading the book... i go n watch the show... gonna puke alreadi.. coz the nan zhu jiao so ugly~~ ahhaha.. actually when i was reading the book i pictured the nan zhu jiao to be so..... handsome? but then my hopes r dashed when i watch the show!! hahaha.. huan zhu ge ge not as bad lar... coz i like the actors... wahhaha... rang ni fa xian le! opps.. hehehe... lame-o...

hrmm... read this veri nice story long ago.. bet a lot of ppl read b4 liaoz.. but still tink tt it is veri meaningful.. so i zai ci xian ge ni men.. hope u all enjoy it as much as i do.. ENJOY~

Tree
The reason I'm called tree is because I'm good at painting trees.
Overtime I start to use a tree on the right hand corner
as a trademark for all my watercolors painting.

I have dated 5 gals when I was in Pre-U. There's one
gal who I love a lot but never dare go after her.
She doesn't have a pretty face, doesn't have a good
figure, doesn't have outstanding charm.
She is just a very ordinary gal.
I like her. I really like her. Like her innocent, like
her frankness. Like her cuteness, like her
intelligence and her fragility.
Reason for not going after her is because I felt
somebody so ordinary like her is not a good match for me.
I'm also afraid that after we are together all the
good feelings will vanish.
I'm also afraid other's gossips will hurt her. I felt
that if she's my gal, she will be mine ultimately & I
don't have to give up everything just for her. The last
reason, made her accompany me for 3 years.

She watch me chase after gals, and I have make her
heart cry for 3 years.
She wants to be a good actress and I'm a very demanding director.
When I kissed my 2nd girlfriend, she bumped into us.
She was embarrassed but smile & say "Go on!" before running off.
The next day, her eyes was swollen like a walnut. I
purposely didn't want to think about what causes her
to cry but laugh at her the whole day.
When everybody go back home, she was alone crying in
the classroom. She didn't know that I returned from soccer
training to get something. I watch her cry for an hour or so.

My 4th girlfriend didn't like her. There was once when
both of them quarreled. I know that based on her character
she's not the type that will start off the quarrel.
But I still sided with my girlfriend. I shouted at her
and her eyes was filled with shock. I didn't care
about her feelings and walked off with my girlfriend.
The next day, she still laugh & joke with me like
nothing has ever happened. I know that she's very hurt
but she didn't know that my heart ache is as bad as hers.

When I broke up with my 5th girlfriend, I asked her
out. After going out for a day, I told her that I have something
to tell her. She told me that coincidentally, she has
something to tell me too. I told her about my break up
and she told me about her getting together. I know
who's the guy. He has been going after her for quite a while.
A very cute guy full of energy, lively and interesting.
His pursuit for her has been the talk of the school.
I can't show her my heart ache but could only smile &
congratulate her. When I reach home, the heart ache is
so strong that I can't stand it. It's like a heavy weighted
stone on my chest. I couldn't breathe. Wanted to shout
but can't.
Tears rolled down I broke down & cry. How many times
have I seen her cry for the man that doesn't acknowledge
her presence too.

During graduation, I read a sms in my hp. It was send
10 days ago when I broke down and cry. I haven't read
it since then.
It says "Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit? Or
because Tree didn't ask her to stay?"

Leaf
During Pre-U days, I like to collect leaves. Why?
Because I felt that for a leaf to leave the tree she
has been relying on for so long it takes a lot of courage.
During the 3 years of Pre-U I was on very close terms with a guy.
Not BGR kind but as buddy kind. But when he had his 1st girlfriend,
I learnt a feeling I never should have learnt - Jealousy.
The sourness in the heart can't be describe by using a
lemon. It's like 100 rotten sour lemon. Sourness to
the extreme limit.
They were only together for 2 mths. When they broke
up, I hide my strong sense of happiness.
But after a mth, he got together with another gal.
I like him & I know he like me.
But why won't he pursue me? Since he love me why he
doesn't want to make the first move?
Whenever he had a new girlfriend, my heart would hurt.
Time after time, my heart was hurt.
I begin to suspect that this is a one sided love. If
he don't like he, why does he treat me so well.
It's beyond what you will normally do for a friend.
Liking a person is very heart wrenching.
I can know his likes, his habits.
But his feelings towards me I can never figure out.
You can't expect me a gal to ask him right?
Despite that, I still want to be by his side. Care for
him, accompany him, love him. Hoping that one fine
day, he will come & love me.
It's like waiting for his phone call every night,
wanting him to send me sms. I know that
no matter how busy he is, he will make time for me.
Because of this, I waited for him.

The 3 years were the hardest to go through & I really
want to give up. Sometimes, I wonder should I continue waiting.
The pain and hurt, the dilemma accompany me for 3
years. Till the end of my 3rd year, a 2nd year junior
begins to go after me. Everyday he pursuit me relentlessly.
From outright rejection to a point in time when I felt that I'm
willing to let him have a small footing in my heart. He's like a
warm, gentle wind, trying to blow a leaf away from the
tree.

In the end, I realized that I didn't want to give this
wind a small footing in my heart. I know this wind
will bring this badly battered leave far away to a better land.
Finally I left tree, but the tree only smile & didn't
ask me to stay.
Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit? Or because
Tree didn't ask her to stay?

Wind
Because I like a gal called leaf. Because she's so
dependent on tree so I have to be a gust wind. A wind
that will blow her away. When I first met her, it was 1 mth
after I transfer to the new school. I saw a petite
person looking at my seniors & me playing soccer.
During ECA time, she will always be sitting there.
Be it alone or with her friends looking at him.
When he talks with gals, there's jealousy in her eyes.
When he looked at her, there's a smile in her eyes.
Looking at her became my habit.
Just like she likes to look at him.

One day, she didn't appear. I felt something amissed.
I can't explain the feeling except it's a kind of uneasiness.
The senior was also not there as well. I went to their
classroom, hid outside and saw my senior scolding her.

Tears were in her eyes while he left. The next day, I
saw her at her usual place, looking at him. I walked
over and smiled to her. Took out a note & gave to her.
She was surprised.
She looked at me, smiled & accept the note.

The next day, she appeared & pass me a note and left.

Leaf's heart is too heavy and wind couldn't blow her away.
It's not that leaf heart is too heavy. It's because leaf never want to leave tree.

I replied her note with this statement and slowly she
started to talk to me & accept my presents & phone calls.
I know that the person she loves is not me. But I have
this perseverance that one day I will make her like me.
Within 4 mths, I have declared my love for her no less
than 20 times. Every time, she will divert away from the topic.
But I never give up. If I decide I want her to be mine,
I will definitely use all means to win her over.I can't remember
how many times I have declared my love to her.
Although I know she will try to divert but I still
bear a small ray of hope.
Hoping that she will agree to me my girlfriend.

I didn't hear any reply from her over the phone. I
asked "what are you doing? How come you didn't want to
reply?" She said, "I'm nodding my head". "Ah?" I
couldn't believe my ears.
"I'm nodding my head" She replied loudly. I hang up
the phone, quickly changed and took a taxi and rush to
her place & press her door bell.

During the moment when she opens the door. I hugged
her tightly.

Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit? Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay?

nice rite? next time i will put more of these nice nice fwded mails i have.. got lotsa them in fact.. din delete them.. so pls check back my blog more often... to get more of these nice fwded mailz... (though i not realli often update my blog.. but i will try..) n pls give me some comments after u have read my blog entries.. noe u all surely have lotsa comments one.. coz u all do jian bao de shi hou.. alwaes have lotsa to du hou gan [esp yew chin].. but me leh... alwaes trying to squeeze out words juz to make the no.. hehehe... tataz for now! cya all peepz in sch! sayonara adious...

thank you for being a part of my life :)
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