yea shall blog on recent happenings tt i can still rmb since it's been so long since i last blogged.

i shall start with ice skating! my recent passion? haha i dunno how to describe it.

anyway yea i finally confirmed tt i love iceskating after yesterday. yesterdae went iceskating with chunmei n stone. roxanne jiahui yinteen n another ex-tkgs girl i tink she's called shirley or smth. oops. sorry. cant really rmb her name. anyway luckily chunmei din put on much of her black face yesterday so really had an enjoyable time. enjoyable time laughing at ppl laughing at myself n getting angry over this stupid guy wearing green brazil jacket who tripped me n din say sorry. wth.

anyway ya i enjoy iceskating. have the xing fu zi you fei xiang de gan jue. it gives me a great feeling of freedom which i cannot find anywhere else. issit bcoz of the coldness there? feel like flying? haha. anyway skated for like 4+ hours. haha. wow longest skating time record for me. skated until my toes cou jin then i bo bian have to stop. haha. bought the unlimited time package ma so can skate forever de. weeeeEE.

but the bad thing bout iceskating is tt there is only 1 pathetic iceskating rink in sg n it's in the west! tt's like so far far away. sigh how i wish leisure park one still open. maybe it is? i dunno. sigh after it closed down years ago i dun even noe wat happened y it closed down watsoever. maybe it juz closed to renovate n it's open now? yea dream on. haha. anyway anyone got updates bout wat happened to leisure park feel free to share with me~! =)

during the holidays i also went iceskating with peiwen jiaming huanghuan xiaoqin irene layhao wenqin n jiali jiazhen. had a great time too. iceskating never fails to make me laugh. haha. anyway this iceskating trip made me realise i can iceskate. haha. in fact i seem to be one of the better iceskaters who can skate tt day. lolx. =) quite proud of myself coz it's only like my 2nd or 3rd time iceskating. hoho.

then was patrina chew's wake. yea she was my sec 2 science teacher. couldn't really rmb her coz of my STM. but nevertheless i still went to her wake with 2fers. got there n saw her. god i dunno wat happened to me la felt so sad when i saw her n cried even though i'm not close to her. haix. but it's really sad la. she only 20+ n had only gone thru like one fifth of her life. she's still so young n there are still so many things to do. i couldn't help but shed tears for her. sigh. shall not say too much le ba. may she find peace n happiness wherever she is.

i wonder if there would be anyone, except my family members, who would shed tears for me when i die? CHOI!! but it's really smth i wonder. many times i feel tt i m a loner. esp after first 3 mths in tj. i dunno y i have tt feeling. i have cliques in tj too but juz tt... i dunno la. everyone's juz enjoys bullying me so much n i juz dunno who exactly are my true friends.. is there really a person whom i can have endless things to tok to with and share all our secrets n stuff? a person whom i really trust n a person who really understands me? i dun even understand myself. sigh. do i have a best friend? sigh i tink i dun believe in best friends anymore.. ever since my best friend left me for someone else in pri 4 after being 4 years of best friends. we were still clsmates for 6 yrs. we still in the same clique during pri sch but our relationship was not as good as the first few years. i never told anyone about it. about wat happened n stuff. tt i really feel very sad n disappointed n i really treasure the friendship i had with her. who cares anyway? it's ironic tt i m still keeping the bell, the one given by the person who 'stole' my best friend, the one tt was the mark of our friendship the start of our clique, n also the start of when i had lost my very first best friend. it was the very first bell which started my collection, my love for bells. maybe juz maybe.. i collect bells coz they serve as a reminder to me? a reminder to not put too much gan qing into friendship. a reminder tt friendship dun really last? yeah the more i tink bout it now the sadder i get. disappointments i encountered so far juz proved tt friendship will never last. neither do promises. the promise of the 5-year later meeting i had with my first best friend. i wonder if she still rmbed it. maybe she din mean it tt time when she said to come back to the old hgs after 5 yrs. but i rmbed it considering my lousy memory, to rmb something tt happened so long ago is not an easy feat for me.. n i took the promise fairly seriously. disappiontments came when the 5years came to a close.. i contacted her but no replies came from her. maybe i sent the sms to her old no? i dunno n i dun wish to find out. it may only lead to more disappointments. i'm sorry to those who i m not able to maintain friendship with. i'm trying hard. it's juz once bitten twice shy. maybe i prefer to be alone now? i dunno. there's still 1 or 2 person whom i can really talk with. but not as much as wat i see in true best friends but really i'm trying hard. asking all my good friends out once in a while to meet up n stuff. i have done all i can. it's really hard but sometimes it's juz not up to u.. enough of sad disappointing childhood friendships. haix.

off i go.